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I miss you , hippo
Friday, September 24, 2010
i miss your laughter and jokesi miss your voice
i miss your smile
i miss having conversation with you
i miss having your company
The point is
I miss YOU , my fren
I guess when Ur sort of gone....
i realized how lucky i am
u were there always when i in need of a listening ear
well sometimes u can be so direct..but it helps...
when i was sad/depressed
which sometime i never tell you
u were there...to make me smile all over again with ur jokes
u made me feel so safe and warmness...i can just u tell u anythink..
u taught me alot of things about life...
Come to think of it
if u really read tis and knows it you
u sure be saying to me right now
Kental lah /weak ah....or bdk bdk dah bilang
hahaha...
No matter how much i miss you
i should not bother you anymore
i should leave you ....
i dnt want to disturb your happiness
that you been finding..a companion
i happy to see that u finally happy
well...frankly speaking...
i was sad..when u were sad
i try my best... but i still feel awful..
unable to make u happy still.. i still remember how sad u can be.
now knowing u well taken care and being happy
more than i can do
I should leave right?
at least i can repay my gratitude
i dnt want disturb your happiness...esp her
hope she really the one that makes u feel that your the most luckiest guy on earth and make u smile always...:)
wish long lasting happiness for both of you...
i broke my own heart..
i sad...but i dnt need pity
i guess i put to much hope and trust on you..sorry..
i think it worth it..
i just a nobody ...just a normal friend to you
but to me...Ur a somebody i always looked up too
i never told anyone
but everyday in school...i pretend i dnt looked at you
but i do...secretly
just to see your smile...
just a few seconds looking at you..made my day
when i see you at msn...i felt so happy.
i dnt know why...
i pretend to hate your jokes..but i was secretly liking it
smth i lie...because i afraid i get remarks..i dnt wish to hear...
when u scold me , i feel guilty for making you angry...
when i said sorry..i really meant it...
i changed ,....because i dnt want to show how much i need you but the fact is ur so important to me
i feel sad , when u feel sad
i feel happy when ur happy
i dnt mind ...staying all night..to listen to it
i dnt tell what i feel really because i afraid u ignore me/hate me/find me irritating/annoying...
i try so hard to control to hide how much i care abt you
i afraid to make you angry/sad
sometimes i do feel tired but i still dnt wanne sleep but instead talk to you at msn...it was worth it
i really cherish every moment with you
what the point really to say all this..haizzz
how wish
just one last tyme
hear u say chillex to me
it made feel better
hear u say
goodnite and able to say it to you back
make me smile before going to sleep
no point having false hope
all i do is hurting myself more :(
well...i sure will be contented looking at you from far
seeing ur smile and hearing ur laughter...far far away...
fuck i hate this feeling
shit...lah
fuck fuck fuck
now is 11;28pm...fuck..i hate going to sleep
it the hardest .....to control my sadness..:(
i shall keep saying to myself..it worth it..
till then
signing out
Azzy