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Wishing that airplanes were shooting stars
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Dont let me find you gonecause that would bring a tear to me.
I'll treasure the friendship forever
I keeping all the memories that you give me joy
I really appreciate u truly because u the only one that truly understands me and knew me and was there when i was in need of company , listen to my cries and sadness and make me laugh and smile.
I'm sorry if i didnt treat u the way you should be treated and i so grateful for being patient with me at times. Sometime i dnt know why i did those things to you. I was blind to not see how well u treated me. Guess i am a fool to not see those things u did all this while.Sorry :(
All i wanne say
i miss being your friend like it used to be.
where we can talked abt anything , anytime.
i feel you drifting away...suddenly..
I'll be a good friend , if u need a listening ear, I'll be there if u want me too.
How i wished , u give me a second chance?
How i wished , u forgive me one more time?
why did i have to have feelings for you? and spoilt everything ..stupid me..
It wont happen again , i promise.
I'll hope we can be friends like it used too
Please dnt go away..'(
can u tell me , u wont go...because of my foolishness
hoping u give me the signs because i too ashamed to talk to you..
I'll cherish the friendship if u give me another chance.. :(
till then
signing out
Azzy
Regret
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
the word that always stick to melike a shadow
i starting to learned the word selfish
i going to use it
to erase that shadow...
just see ...it will worked
just see
what it can do to me
just see...
and maybe the people of the torn pages
just see...maybe u will have that shadow instead....
till then
signing out
Azzy
Aching badly inside
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
haizzz.....:(
so many things coming up
BEv & OFA exam ....and ILT project....stress...haizzz
Smiling always
till then
signing out
Azzy
Why
Monday, May 24, 2010
i dnt understandseriously....
why..
why..
why..
thinking abt it just make me
....feeling so piss off
at the same tyme...feeling sad
the loneliness..
i guess i have to get used to it
SMiling all the way :D
till then
signing out
Azzy
Sunday, May 23, 2010
hey peepstoday was totally unexpected
yesterday night too....:D
I cnt wait for their call
to give the good news
i so wanne be an actress...
pls god give me this chance/opportunity :D
PLS GOD :D
i really appreciate everything u have given
but pls god..u gave me HOPE especially today
u gave me a stepping stone ...
u made my dreams come alife...
u made me taste bit by bit of my childhood dream
thks mum for being there again :D
Hope tmr will be better than today :D
My new fav song
EMINEM : I not afraid ....rockz man !!!
till then
signing out
Azzy
Doubts of the mind
Friday, May 21, 2010
Then again...having second thoughts.Should i ? why would ? Sure i? Can i do it? What if u cant azzy ?
what if..it turns into embrassement to me? if i become ...will i still able to balance ? then again...why did i feel regretion after declining it? Does my heart wanted that?
Should i try? What if is a no? ..i am sure going to be sad .. what if it is a yes?...? Am i prepared maybe face the consequences ?? or maybe i just need more faith in myself..have to be more positive? why do i have a bad feeling then??
God i so scared
God i afraid
God why do i still wanne do but still having doubts
God help me.
Decision making is so freaking hard...
thinking back i am already regretting my mind
but why do i still want to do it ( in my heart)
Why am i so afraid of?
till then
signing out
Azzy
Going far far far away ....NEW FRENS :D
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Today i
realise
how fortunate to HAve
AWesoMe NEW FRENZ
i have Natalie & Warda Esp ( Loving them)!!! :D
Dayah , Rafidah & May Yee...make me laugh everyday
And LB Classmate
And My CA
U guyz are really supportive :D
Thks for the advise Nat & Hamster ...i really need one
I LOVE MYSELF MORE....
TIME FOR MAKING LIFE MORE FUN
Today suppose to have soccer training...but end up cancel
i guess next week...i cnt wait for that mOMent :D :D
Before i go to sleep
I JUST WANNE SAY TO A SPECIAL SOMEONE:
For the one i been secretly crushing u for quite sometime alr
i think it is time for me to leave
I need to let go ...the past is past
But i really cherish the great memories WIth u:D
I wont be having a GPA 4 , the confidence with becoming more feminine, etc =)
U REALLY WAS A BIG IMPACT IN MY LIFE...u made me positive about life
The truth i need you because i love u ..
I WISH I CAN TELL U THAT in person
but i too coward .....
so i am running away ...far3 away
cause i been hurting myself enuf waiting for nothing
I not the one u want so..BYE !!! HOPE U GET UR HAPPINESS
You're one of the best thing that happen out of my 17 yrs of life
THKS For being there when i breakdown ...and there was no one who picked my call except U :D
I cnt express my gratitude in words
Never regret knowing U
I WISH I CAN TALKED TO U ONCE MORE
AND JUST HAVE U AND ME Hang out together<
but i guess that wont happen...because our life path has changed.
I will never forget U ever...
UR actually my first love :D
BYE
ME
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
ME My book of life has turned complicated
after learning new experiences everyday
Tearing the pages of I Do not wish to keep anymore
Making a new chapter
Living in a whole new beginning
Leaving the pain behind
That keeps hurting every night
Which used to be dreams
Eventually becomes nightmares that haunt my peaceful sleeps
I will get rid of it
by all means
The body which used to be strong and independent
has grown weaker every minute
becoming sick easily
I will not surrender to such circumstances
It will not stop me from all the things
that i used to dream about
AZZY DOES NOT GET DEFEATED EASILY
life has turned to a battlefield of emotions and difficult situations
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Now is 12:18pmMy throat still hurts
but at least i now can hear bits of my voice coming back
LB IS GREAT TO HAVE FUN AND LAUGHTER NON-STOP esp during the camp!!!!!>>> =)
I miss TG still....
I feel so awful :( :(
I tired of pretending no more
the truth is i feeeling so down inside ,
I admitting because I cant lie to myself anymore
I keep reminding myself..positive things
I can , I will enjoy , Tmr will be better than tomorrow
I control my happiness , nobody else ,
everything is great!!! trying to adapt to changes
To be truthful , i secretly crying inside.
I need a talk........but who is there for me?
I dnt have true friends...all i have is friends that only there to have fun with :( :(
that the fact.............nobody understand me
i always listen to others problems
but when it is my turned...
there is no one....
i dnt want ppl to think i am problemetic fren....so i prefer to just be there and shut up
i dnt need empathy...i want true friendship
i dnt need pityness ...i want true friendship
all i need someone to understand me...who wants to understand not by pityness or empathy...
AHAHHAHAHAAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DNT NEED OTHERS
AZZY IS STRONG BY HERSELF !!!
SHE IS NOT PETTY !
SHE IS NOT SENSITIVE !
EVERYTHING WILL BE BETTER!
LIFE IS GREAT!!!! I GRATEFUL :D
SMILE MORE :D :D :D
I CAN !!! I WILL !!!!
MON IS BEV TEST>>>> I CAN DO IT !! AND I WILL!!!
Signing Out
Azzy