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Tuesday, January 19, 2010
I know2 that it is almost 11pm pluswhat the hell i doing here when i have to wake early to work tmr
well....
i feeling really really awful not because of work / family /frens
it is other thing...cnt really say it here
as i post previouslyi said keeping all the deep thoughts inside
my parents and faryssa went back to kampung leaving me . bro , sis and bibi at home alone
feel kinda sad abt it...thks to attachment ...i far away from them...
TodAY.,work was fun and all
just that i kinda emotionally confused...hard to explain
all i have to say the more i know the real you
the more i hate myself for knowing you
cause i going to hurt myself more
my sadness is killing me inside bit by bit everyday
the smiles are just masks to cover it
and trying to do my job well and not think abt it
as they say there;s always a first tyme for everything
well this the first tyme i really.......
no words can explain how i feel
i never feel tis way before ....i dnt one to forget but i have too....
it pains like someone piercing my heart every minute
all i can do is pray it will be over soon
LUckily , when i at work or at school
they allowed me to forget my worries
but when i have relax moments like lunch tyme, etc
the pains spiralling back again....:(
i hope typing some bits of my sadness at this post
makes myself better
I wanne cry as much as i like
as crying forgets the my worries for awhile
so dnt try stopping me from crying my hearts out alone
Syonara
Azzy