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Thursday, July 9, 2009
REstLEss DaysIt been days since i had a good rest...i think its insonmia ..kinda boring in the night when everybody asleep except you...i will in bed turning here and there ...read a book until i realise the next day i fallen asleep or think about any topic until i can't sleep but still feel tired and impatient in class.
Maybe i think too much in the night. Some nights like yesterday night i will be thinking about why did i do that , Why did i say that, thinking who am i , Why do i feel sad but feeling empty inside, Why do i feel angry and not do anything...Why was i blur When the whole class called my name in ITI lesson?? Who am I...Why do i feel like an empty shell with no feeling?? Why did i say that to dayah or my mum or fuzah or mai or syaz, my bro , my sisters or call Syxxxx for no reason ...Why did i Watch that show rather than study ??
Why? WHY ? WHy?
Maybe this what they called self-reflection but it makes me so tired of thinking the whole night
:(( wish i can stop it....Even i feel like a empty person With neutral feelings , life must go on...its 8 :40 am now...time to do the normal routine and go to sch ...even if u feel nothing , u got to act it out...putting a fake smile mask ...
Signing out
Confuse Zslim
8:43am
9 July 2oo9