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Changing My Label
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Changing My LAbelOne mean insult can make you feel it defines you. But how you see yourself is totally up to you.
Stupid , irritating , skinny , shut up . That was some of the names friends of mind called me in schools . I now don't even care antmore..it neutral..but after my mum said indirectly i am stupid still hurts me but not that severe. I spent years trying to become a normal size or fat..till now insucessful..some may think i so lucky eating as much as i like and not be fat...infact i very self-concious ...hate being stupid , slow and skinny to be truthful.
At some point do you feel we all end up on the receiving end of an awful insult? It doesn't matter if its a joke but it can taunt others in a way of evading the mind of the victim , so as we look in the mirror , it's holding a magnifying glass to our inperfections and that all we see...nothing else.
Sadly , as we grow older , we stick to our labels ..where the damage has done that often defines us. You might not realise it, but these labels stop us from what we really wanne do. Maybe you act shy in class . or timid or scared to talk as you afraid ( low self esteem)
When you internalised the label, it hurts yourself and your mind. From today onwards , stop letting lable yourself for who you are and come up with ones that represent you. The next time you find yourself not saying what you really want to say or avoiding because you still feel like a girl/ boy who isn't perfect enough , realise that you can choose Who you wanne be anyday , anytime. :))
Dedicated esp to my friend: Siti HAwa....stop thinking your fat which your are not just because i am skinny doesn't mean you have to be one to feel good..the more you say your fat at me..the more i feel hurt about myself ....fyi: i been eating alot lately ..depressed of what you said ...and tired of ppl saying i stupid ...so What I in ITE noW Azmira ...:thks for all the hurtful worda u said to me ...never forget it ..so Wht you in JC now..big deal..i'll catch up with you..u'll see i'll be much much better than you....how dare you ask me to go to hell and insulted my family...thks so much because i officially hate ppl esp and don't trust ppl easily anymore
Signing out
Zslim
7:57pm 8 July 2009