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Back to the couch
Sunday, January 10, 2016
Well a wise person told me. Write. It helps
So here i am write
I have so much dreams and hopes when i was a teenager.like anything is possible..but at times goes by.
I understand why adults settle down and adapt..to be honest i miss being that girl that sit on this weekend couch and really genuine enjoy in her own world.
Recently i met a wonderful wonderful man. He is perfect..its a long story.. But i keep screwing it up. Day by day..the girl she tot she knew herself ..has change. i wish he hold me tight and let me feel like a princess..but thats not how reality works unlike in the books. It takes more than that.. Alot more ..
Things happens for a reason right?
Well thats all i feel like writing.
Signing out
Zeerawho
Everyone in love
Friday, March 23, 2012
Dnt be shocked..Im not in love
hahaha
the tittle is referring to my clique
we use to be 6 single girls ...happy for singlehood
one by one going in relationship
except me and 5th girl..
Today mark another special day where the person who has so many admirers in school and yet none got her heart ...Finally is taken
I am really so happy for them....
They found the ONE
till then
signing out
Azzy
Reigniting the writer in me
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Suddenly have the urge to come back ...So many things happen for the past 1 year..where to start really?
Learn and experience so many first time
Sadly , realising too late ...im losing friends again
Oh well , everything happens for a reason right?
It's good to be back though...
That's all for tonite
Shall hearing more from me tonite onwards
Down with flu*
Till then
Signing out
Sick girl
Changing
Saturday, February 12, 2011
alot has happened lately..good :) and bad :(exams are coming..i still want to keep my prefect gpa
oh yah..after listening endless time what so good abt tumblr and almost all them having it...time for a change...so byebye blogspot..hello tumblr..http://foreverzslim.tumblr.com
till then
signing out
Azzy
Hurt
Sunday, February 6, 2011
I cant stand it anymore..all 4 guys blaming me for their misery
i didnt ask any of you to do anything
i didnt ask you to love me
none of you guys ask me WHAT DO I REALLY WANT ...not one of them !!!
is just so unfair
all of them blaming me
so unfair
For the guy who said i love him
u say u scared to hurt me
well u just did if u dnt realise
accusation here and there
it sucks just by reading it ..serious shit
it just so unfair
i told u frm the start i dnt want to have a boyfriend
yes I LOVE U
but that all
what are expecting from me????? putting expecatations on me..i hate that
ur just suffocating me
so damn frustrating
arggg..ALL GUYS are all the same!!!
they always want more
i regret telling you the truth
i should not have told you
it should have been just a secret for me to keep..it should be that way..haizzz
now i know you want more...
i tot u were different..guess i wrong
what next - dating , itimate relationship , couple ,etc
i dnt want them all
it not you..it just me
i not ready for all this !!!
is just my personal choice
it been that way since i was born
single as always
why do ppl want to have boy-girl relationship
i have goals in life ..u know
i only want a boyfriend only when i turned 21...is just a personal choice
it is wrong to be different from other teenagers...
it is???
i want to pursue other things in life first..and love is not one of them yet...
god , are u testing me
god , i really trying really hard to see this as a positive light...is draining me out...more and more
i suffocating ..just want my freedom like it use too ...before my seventeen birthday, before i like a boy ...etc
i just to be the happy go lucky girl ..just having frens and pursing what she enjoys the most..
it is wrong to be different from other girls...
it hurts me to say this
to the guy i love
but if u want more
dnt choose me
socialise with other girls and find a better girl that can meet your expectations
it will hurt me eventually , yes i addicted to u..but ill will figure out how to manage me own emotions..i am strong
because if u want to continuing staying ,
dnt expect me anything
dnt blame me ...i hate this injustice
i love myself more ....so i figure out hw to heal my heart when ur gone to find ur new lover...i given up , i hate getting judge by you..i hate love ...
STOP FREAKING BLAMING ME>>>
till then
signing out
azzy
I feel so alive
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Finally updating my blog , been neglecting my blog..well i back to blogging.Well , i dnt know why, but i never felt so alive today
I forgotten the pain , the ME has come back, the previous ME before i met my first crush.
Actually , since i was born till i become seventeen , i really never come across this word known as "lonely". i never remember feeling lonely at all.
until after my seventeen birthday , when realizing i like a guy for a first time. Oh well , as they say , u dont always get it right for the first time. That experience and memories , made me stronger and self -discovered more of ME.
Neway , that is all past tense. The sleep and knowing finally i have free time for myself...i feel so alive!! God thks for all the thing u given me :D then again in chinese calender ..today is A NEW YEAR
...just in time azeerah
time for new goals and let bygones be bygones.
Since is a new start
well every month ,i always target how many new people i wanne meet
so this month it shall be 20...hopefully:D
Oh yah , you must be wondering did i meet my target last month
well i did !! but the best deal i got last month ,ever since 18 Nov 2010
i meet this bunch of guys from Information Technology...to be honest...i finally feel i have a true friend indeed..
they teach me a lot , such as the deeper meaning of friendship ( i will never forget the times they keep waiting for me) , open me a new perspective about friendship , help me heal from the pain , make some of my dreams come true..they are truly the nicest guys i ever meet :D and i am so glad our path cut across before poly comes!!
God , i appreciate everything. i so looking forward , the path u have written for me :D hope for the best
till then
signing out
Azzy
Surprised and happy
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Today wasnt that bad afterall..infact everytime i think abt it ..it makes me smile..Even though is just a small action ( waiting), i really was totally caught offguard...
Never thought people will wait for me..usually it is the other way around
i super touch today and that make me smile ..wont forget today
dnt know why feeling happy at the thought of it ...feel so appreciated
smth i feel i so self -centered ever since two years ago , always blabbering abt my life , and on and on..
today it make me realise that! also debates help me to really learn how to listen
maybe starting from today onwards, my aim is to talk less and maybe give others a chance to talk...
who knows listening can be as much fun as talking...